People are working diligently on themselves healing their Childhood Repression through their feelings. They are uncovering the truth of why are they way they are – why they feel bad.
Childhood Repression
I’ve started a Childhood Repression forum. I am intending it to be a place to provide more information about childhood repression and our healing of it, following on from my CR website. Also hopefully it will provide a place for people who are doing their feeling-healing, wanting to express their feelings to uncover the hidden truth of them, to write about all they are going through. I also intend it to grow into something of a resource for links to other places and information on the web that provide information and understanding about, feelings, feeling expression and using feelings to heal oneself.
The CR forum is also with Divine Love Spirituality forum, because even though one might not be interested in God, at some point in ones feeling-healing one might start to wonder about the bigger questions, such as: Why have I been subjected to my negative state and put through all of this – what’s it all for! And only God can answer those questions, which will happen as one grows in truth.
Should you feel like visiting you are most welcome, and please feel free to become involved.
James.
This is very important to understand regarding the doing of your Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing.
Ones healing begins with the understanding that all how humanity is, is wrong – everything. So all how you are is wrong – everything. It doesn’t matter if some of how you are may be right, that will come out in the wash so to speak, but it does matter to begin by focusing on the worst; so you are not only all wrong, but you are evil too. So alarm bells should start ringing, you should feel resistance to this, for no one wants to be evil unless they are wanting to for reasons of false power.
So if you can accept, or just entertain the notion that we’re all living untrue to ourselves, untrue to our soul, untrue to nature and untrue to God, then this is where you begin: by wanting to become true. True to yourself, nature and God. And so, you need to do your healing.
So then we look to our feelings to help us see this truth – how untrue we are and all that entails, and why we are untrue: what’s happened to us to make us be this way. And we are to accept and express and long for the truth of all our feelings. And in uncovering the truth, so we will change, we don’t have to actively do anything with our minds to make ourselves change into better people. We ONLY have to accept and understand and express all our feelings to do with how we feel about being in our untrue states; so uncover the truth of being evil; or, the truth of being untrue. And as we do, we’ll slowly become more true just naturally.
Now the difference between what doing your Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing is compared to every other type of healing – be it with a therapist looking deep into your traumas, or through spiritual or religious means, or simply using your mind to forgive and forget and ‘get over it’ – is that all such ways of doing your healing are merely so you can heal yourself of your current problems, then once done, be able to happily move along in life feeling a lot better, even feeling fantastic, having overcome your disease or bad emotional state. So these approaches are offering help to overcome such obstacles, to change yourself, all so you can continue on being more successful and feeling much better about yourself in life as you know it, HOWEVER, IT’S IN A LIFE THAT IS STILL ALL WRONG. And this is what’s important to understand. So although you might feel wonderful having healed some part of yourself, or even your whole self as some people claim to have done, you are still only feeling more wonderful in your untrue, and so negative and evil state of mind and will. You simply feel more confident and powerful in your untruth, moving along happily still advancing it. So you’ve not healed ALL of yourself. You’ve not healed ALL of your Childhood Repression, you’ve not uncovered every feeling you’ve denied yourself since your conception. You will at best, only have scratched the surface of your true and full healing.
So what doing your Feeling-Healing and Soul-Healing is all about, is to HEAL YOURSELF OF YOUR WHOLE NEGATIVE STATE, to become positive and true. So it’s a complete breaking down of how you are, and rebuilding into a new you, a you that is true and full of love and is truly loving. So it’s a whole change of the inner person, and it will take time to be achieved and endless amounts of very hard work on yourself, because as you will find, you will have seemingly endless amounts of buried repressed bad feelings within you, all coming from what happened to you during your forming years.
So as your healing evolves, you will have breakthroughs when you feel great, and possibly feel you’ve healed your traumas, but it’s not about then getting on living happily in what’s left of your untrue state, it’s about still longing hard to live true, and dedicating your life to achieving the goal of being perfect, and true to your soul. And if this is your intention, then rest assured, your soul will keep the pressure on you, even relentlessly until there are simply no more repressed feelings to come out of you. And by the time that happens you will have spiritually grown in truth to understand your whole negative and untrue, evil condition, and your whole way of life and all you stand for will have vastly changed.
So doing your Feeling-Healing and Soul-Healing is not to look into yourself so as you fix what problems are there, enabling you to get back on the horse that you seem to have fallen off. It’s going off in a whole other and new direction entirely, living a very different life to the one you have known, removing yourself from the world in as much as not being untrue and evil like everyone else is, but still being able to be in the world, only in your true and perfect state of mind and will once you’ve finished your healing.
Ann and Terry are doing their Feeling-Healing – you can heal your childhood repression.
Ann and Terry are learning how to use their feelings, and particularly their bad ones, to help them uncover the truth of themselves – why they are as they are. They are using their feelings by speaking about how they feel to each other to look deeper into themselves to see all the hidden reasons why they are feeling bad, all which relates to their early childhood. And gradually as they work on themselves, doing their Feeling-Healing, they are uncovering the truth of their Childhood Repression.
Some people say you can’t heal your childhood repression without professional help, and possibly not even with good therapy, however Ann and Terry are showing that you can. Our childhood repression was brought about because of our early relationships, and so now in our adult relationships we can undo all the wrong that was done to us, and that has been affecting us all our lives.
Your childhood repression is making you sick
During childhood we were all forced to repress many of our bad feelings. ‘Stop crying’, for example. And so, okay, you manage to stop, but what happens to all those bad feelings that were making you cry in the first place. Do they just disappear, go away, never to be seen of again. Or, do they stay within you, suppressed because you were not allowed to bring them out. And then as you’re still not allowed to bring them out, so you have to keep them repressed, buried deeply, hidden and out of sight. But those feelings are a part of you, so by blocking them out you were being forced to block a part of yourself out. This being the denial of feelings – the denial of yourself. And I think you must know, that if you deny any part of yourself, then you’re not going to be functioning as a fully whole person, so in your crippled and dysfunctional state, your system is going to fail – you get sick. We all live in a state of the repressed child, we’re all keeping our childhood repression within us. And it’s making us sick. You can think you catch a cold because you’ve got a bug and it’s the bug making you sick, but why do you catch it and not someone else. And you can put it down to bad luck or that you might be somewhat more stressed of late; but no, it’s because your cold is there to make you feel bad, so you can use those bad feelings to go deeper into yourself, to reconnect with those same bad feelings when you were a young child. Those same feelings you were forced to deny. Those same bad feelings that are still ‘alive’ within you. They are what’s called your childhood repression. And they are the truth of why you get sick.
Express your bad feelings
Expressing all our bad feelings is the way to becoming a whole person. The longer one lives denying any feeling at all; the longer one says, ‘No, I’m all right, I’ll be all right’, when clearly one is not all right, the harder it is to come back to living true to yourself. We’ve been taught and we live in a feeling-denying societies believing in feeling-denying religions, all to the detriment of ourselves, all causing us to slowly kill ourselves through the lack of true self-love. True self-love being the act of accepting and expressing every feeling, not just the good ones whilst suppressing the bad.
Our Repressed Childhood
All our woes stem from our early childhood, however mostly we’ve been taught and made to believe that it’s nothing within us that’s wrong, it’s all that’s wrong out there, all out there in the world that’s causing us all our problems by going wrong and not being as we think it should be. But all that’s going wrong out there is only a reflection of all that’s gone wrong within us, all that’s still going wrong deep in our repressed and early childhood. And if you do seriously want to come to terms with this, it being done by looking into your childhood repression, then it will involve some deep therapy and you might not like the truth it brings to light. Because after all, you’ve been doing all you can throughout your life to avoid it.
Being Plunged down into your dark hole
Marion was reading a story about a woman who acquired a lovely older cat that helped her through a very difficult time when her father died. During her despair, she said that she was plunged down into a dark hole, feeling bad feelings like she’d never felt before, and being somewhat bemused as to how and why they were in her; that she even had inside her, such a depth of bad feelings to ‘fall’ into. With time, and the help of her empathetic and loving cat, she got through managing to drag herself out of her hole and back into her ‘normal’ life. She said, she’d never felt as bad in her whole life as during that horrible time.
However, I would venture to say, that she has in fact felt as bad, and that is why such bad feelings and her dark hole are within her, only she has chosen (like most of us do) to cover them up and hide them from herself. Her dark hole is her early childhood, all those terrible feeling-times when she felt so bad, as bad as she felt when she was plunged back down into them. All those bad feelings still within her, all locked and hidden away, and yet all there waiting until one day when they can come out.
The death of her father pushed aside your usual facade of good feelings, and down she feel, down into the truth of what she is really feeling deep within her but understandably refusing to face. She touched on, through that very trying year, that truth of her Childhood Repression.
Continuing
I’ve redone and updated my childhood repression website and added two new sites and a bad feeling forum.
Feeling bad? Express your bad feelings, is a simple introduction to our bad feeling denial, along with a few of my free books on feeling denial.
Along with this I’ve added a bad feeling expression forum, a place to try and write your feelings with the aim of uncovering the truth of them. If you feel bad, you are most welcome to participate there.
And a new blog I’m getting under way that involves a fictitious couple Ann and Terry who are beginning their Feeling-Healing. The idea being, along with my commentary on their feeling expression, to try and give some insight into how Marion and I do our Feeling-Healing.
James
For all the relevant links see over to the right hand side of this blog.
Unloved
According to WordPress statistics the most frequent google search to find my blog is What happens to a child that grows up unloved.
And that is what my blog is about, accepting the fact that in one way or another, no matter what we might feel about ourselves, we’re all unloved children that are struggling along doing all we do in an attempt to gain the love we feel we missed out on.
That the whole world is comprised of people who don’t really feel good about themselves, people who are doing all they can to cover up and ignore such bad feelings, all because they don’t want to face the truth that they weren’t loved as they needed to be loved when they were young.
Any bad feeling we have, any unhappiness, illness, anything that goes wrong in our lives, all comes about as a result of things that weren’t right during our forming years. However mostly we don’t understand this, mostly we fail to see the connections between our adult lives and what happened to us during our early childhood. And it’s through this blog and my childhood repression website that I’m wanting to shed light on what might really be going on inside us, all based on the truth I have uncovered about myself through the doing of my childhood repression healing.
So essentially what happens to the child that grows up unloved is it remains unloved, even if as an adult it does all sorts of things to delude itself that it does feel loved. And one can go even further to understand that one doesn’t grow up in this regard, that if one is a an unloved child, then until one does ones childhood repression healing, one will always remain that unloved child, even in an adult body. And it’s all the buried pain, anger, resentment, hurt, misery lying dormant yet threatening to erupt into ones life that keeps one going doing all one can to deny the truth of how one really feels.
And so not only is it necessary to ask what happens to the child that grows up unloved, so too is it necessary to ask what happened to the child to make it feel unloved. The answers being found in the truth of ones early childhood and in the truth of ones relationship with ones parents, if one wishes to go that way.
We’re all in a very bad way. Yet we don’t want to acknowledge it. We want to do all we can to resist accepting it. We don’t want to uncover the truth that we don’t feel loved. Even those people who do know it will still be hiding more unloved feelings from themselves. And yet if you do want to be truly happy and free of such pain, if you do want to feel truly loved, then one day you’ll have to look into the truth of why you don’t feel loved. And to do that will involve doing your Feeling-Healing.
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