We live in a negative self-denying state of mind and will, and consequently we are evil. We can blame each other for being evil: ‘he’s evil, look at all the evil things he does, whereas I am not, I am good, look at all the good, kind and loving things I do’, and yet it’s still all within the negative, all within evil.
We live on a world that exists in rebellion against all that is good and loving, all that is right and true – all that is perfect. We only need look at our relationship with nature to see this. We see the other creatures that share our world as things to use and abuse to make us feel good – to give us feelings of power. We denigrate our environment not because we love it so much, but because we feel so denuded of love ourselves. And something that is true, pure and perfect we can’t allow to exist just as our parents didn’t allow us to exist in our true and perfect states when we were coming into being. Nature must come down to our level and be as we are, as that is all we know.
When we look at how many bad feelings we fail to allow ourselves to feel – feelings that are us, feelings that want and should be expressed – we can only conclude that something is very wrong. And it is. We exist in rebellion against our own nature, we use and abuse ourselves trying to maintain the corruption that exists within us. We only abuse nature because we abuse our own nature, because our parents abused us – it’s what we’ve learnt to sadly believe is the right way to be. We don’t seek to be kind and caring to ourselves by stopping our feeling- and self-denial, we do the very opposite. And in doing so we are stopping ourselves from freely and fully expressing all we are – our personality.
God is Personality. We don’t really understand this, nor understand it’s significance. We can accept and willingly say, God is love, but that allows us to keep the Personality of God somewhat removed from ourselves. Were we to accept that God is Personality, then we’d come to understand that personality is very important. And we’d begin to see that all of Creation is God expressing Their Personality. The Mother and Father have a feeling and they express it. We – humanity – are a result of one such ‘feeling’. God doesn’t hold back in Their expression of personality, allowing both the perfect and imperfect to exist side by side, so why do we?
To understand the problems of humanity – and indeed we all know we do have many – one needs to understand that expression of personality is above all else, for without it there is no love. If there is no personality how can you experience love? Sure love may still exist, but without full personality expression you’ll never know about it.
So we need to attend to our personality understanding how we are denying its full expression – our personality being the sum total of ALL our attributes that define us as the individual we are, including all our thoughts, feelings, emotions, dreams, aspirations, desires together with all our physical, spiritual and behavioural characteristics. We need to look to God as Personality so we can look our own personality. And it doesn’t take much to see that we are living anti-personality, anti what we’ve been created to be.
We are meant to be the shining glory of our personality, not shrivelled up, disease ridden, poor pathetic creatures addicted to all sorts of things that are harmful to us and help to keep our self and personality denial in place.
Look at how addicted you are to your wrong childhood beliefs and behaviours, all of which are driving and maintaining your self-destructive rebellious negative state of being. Look at what your parents did to you and what you are still doing to yourself – look at what you are doing to your own children. Your parents didn’t want to know you as you wanted them to, they didn’t allow you to fully and freely come into being. They told you how they wanted you to be applying many conditions, and you had no option but to comply.
Your parents treated you evilly, and so now you evilly treat yourself, along with evilly treating everyone and everything else you have anything to do with. And by denying yet one small part of your personality, by not freely and fully expressing it – ALL Of YOURSELF, you are not being true, perfect and so are untrue, imperfect – evil. And as none of us want to see and accept this about ourselves, we all put on a false face, false smile, and pretend we are happy and all-loving. All whilst we set about doing to our children all the wrong that was done to us.
Humanity can’t go on denying itself its full personality expression unless it just wants to exist in ever increasing amounts of pain and suffering. Has the world with modernisation – ‘the answer to everything’ – actually decreased its pain and suffering? I don’t think so. And so we will only continue to feel worse and have to do more extreme things to ourselves hiding these bad feelings as we ‘progress’. And one day we’ll start to wake up and wise up to the fact that our type of progress is only progressing deeper into our unloving negative states. That it’s all an illusion that it’s making us feel happier, healthier and more loving. That it’s all only taking us further away from our true selves, deeper into our self- and feeling denial, deeper into personality suppression. Deeper into our evil state of anti love and anti all that is good, true and beautiful.
Childhood Repression and Feeling-Healing 