We’re all carting around our baggage from early childhood. And we all would dearly love someone to come and take it from us. Someone to relieve us from the burden we feel all but smothered by. And if someone says, I can help you, we rush to them wanting them to do so.
I too are looking for someone to relieve me of my inner pressures, but that is not how I want to live, for then I am forever dependent on them, transferring my dependence from my parents to someone else.
So if you get the feeling from my writing that I am trying to dump off my burdens on you, asking you to help and save me, I am sorry, but I need to do this as a part of my childhood repression healing. And I hope, as I heal such a need within myself – the hope that finally my mother and father will love me as I need to be loved – it will lessen and stop altogether.
And likewise, I can’t offer anyone else any help other than what I am doing. So this is the ultimate self-help experience you’ll be taking on if you choose to heal your childhood repression through your bad feeling acceptance.
But from what I know of my experiences, if you do want to truly do it, then the necessary help will come when needed. You won’t be left all alone struggling along by yourself (although at times you might feel like you are) just how you felt when you were little.
James.
