Addicted?

Who caused your addiction?

YOUR PARENTS! No one else. The same people who caused your childhood repression. You’re only doing it to yourself because of how you were treated during your forming years. Any other reasons you might tell yourself as to why you are addicted, will probably only be what they or someone influential during your early life told you.

Why are you addicted?

Because they denied you the love you needed to form with. From conception all the way through your early childhood, you were deprived of the love you needed to grow with. And you still desperately want that love. But it’s not going to come, and this makes you feel very bad. It makes you feel as bad as you felt back then. And the truth of it, you don’t want to face. You don’t want to feel all the bad feelings of being unloved. You don’t want to know that your parents did not love you. So you block them out – at least try to – with your addiction. You do something you believe makes you feel better – gives you the good loving feelings they should have given you.

And what if I know my parents didn’t love me but still I’m addicted?

The same still applies. There is just more truth and more bad feelings of not feeling loved by them waiting for you to see.

How do I heal my addiction?

By doing your Feeling-Healing – healing your childhood repression through the complete unconditional love of yourself; of all the bad feelings you are denying. By uncovering the whole truth of why you are addicted – the whole truth of your relationship with your parents. By allowing yourself to feel all your pain, all your bad feelings resulting from not feeling loved. The pain your trying to run away from, trying to quell, hide and squash out of existence with your addiction.

Will I ever be free of my addiction?

No, not until you have felt and seen the whole truth of it. You may stop doing it, you may feel you don’t need it any longer, but it won’t be completely healed until you uncover the whole truth through your childhood repression healing – then you will know you are free of it. By doing this slowly, you will give yourself through your bad feeling acceptance, the love they didn’t give you – slowly you will love yourself out of your need to be addicted. You will become the kind, caring, considerate, humble, all-loving parent to yourself that your parents should have been to you.

Can I heal my addiction and love my parents at the same time?

Can you love your parents for denying you the love you needed from them?

What about forgiving them for what they have done to me?

What about it? Worry about yourself first. Heal all of your childhood repression and need for your addiction, and then worry about them, if you still feel you want to. Until you put yourself first – your feelings, all the good and BAD ones, nothing will change. You’ll just go around in your mind still refusing to face and deal with the real issues at hand – that they didn’t love you. Until you give up trying to make happy family, it’s not going to happen. You’re fucked, they fucked you, and only you can get yourself out of it. And it’s only going to happen by accepting, honouring, expressing and seeking the truth of your bad feelings. All the rest of the healing processes are dicking around avoiding the real issues. Sure they may help you, they may even ‘heal’ you, but there’s still all the yuk to do with your parents buried deep inside you waiting until one day you decide it’s time to try and face it.

We are all addicted aren’t we?

Yes; to our self-denial, to our negative state, to our childhood repression, as seen by our ongoing denial of our feelings and our refusal to accept the truth of our relationship with our parents.